Welcome Jared Israel!

I have been away...but with a good excuse.  I was down on bed rest prior to my due date, so I didn't get much done.  With a few complications (not sure if I even blogged about those), my c-section date was two weeks early.  After a very long nine months and a pregnancy that seriously kicked my butt, we finally welcomed Jared Israel!  He was born at 8am on November 11th weighing in at 6lbs. 9oz. and was 18.5in. long.  Here are a few pics:

We have had an eventful first month.  We started with tummy troubles and after changing formulas we got pooping troubles.  Were battling reflux, which is a bear and makes for a crabby baby!  He's incredibly restless and spits up like CRAZY!  I hope we are on the road to a happier baby now that we have reflux meds.

I have been diagnosed with severe post-partum depression.  It's safe to say it's kicking my butt, BAD!  I am hoping to feel better soon!

I will catch up on first month pics as soon as I can! =)

New Doctor=Happy Mamma!

After finally getting everything together, and a few not so nice phone calls to get people doing what they were supposed to have already done, I got an appointment with a new doctor!  This doctor was super nice, concerned and made me feel so much better about my decision to up and change at nearly 36 weeks pregnant.  Crazy yes, don't judge.  The other doctor was making me insane.

So, at my appointment my BP was high for the first time this pregnancy which got me a NST (which he said I should have been getting anyway since I am high-risk).  Thank you Dr. Imonlyhereforapaycheck (previous dr) for not doing your job!  Anyway, baby's heart rate was good and he was super active, so all is well.  I am back to checking blood sugar FIVE times a day...I hate that, but gotta do what I gotta do.  New dr says that stopping the sugar meds was probably a mistake and old dr shouldn't have done that either (thanks again).  So this week since I am testing so much he said he will get a good idea of my sugar patterns and we will go from there.  Next week I get another ultrasound to check baby's growth and see how much he has grown...I am betting he is at least six pounds by now...since he was four pounds six weeks ago.  EEEK.  And unfortunately I have gained 20, YES TWENTY pounds...gonna have to get my fat butt working out as soon as I am able!

So overall, I am pleased with new doctor, his nurse was nice as well.  They made me feel better about switching horses mid-stream so to speak.  Hooray for people with concern and care and who love the job they do! =)

Now, this won't be nearly as pleasant...but if you read this blog you know I have a 'friend' who is seriously rubbing me the wrong way.  It seems like this is happening on a daily basis...and NO, it's not just my crazy pregnant hormones.  I am easy to get along with, I haven't been crazy hormonal, I pretty much let people walk on me and it's just about to get the best of me.  There's nothing like having someone think they are in control of your every freaking move.  Seriously...I think she plans my whole day for me before I am even outta bed.  I'm fed up.  What kind of friend does this??? I am capable of speaking and doing for myself.  I was making it just fine in this big ol' world before you came in the picture!  I don't need you to tell me how things are gonna be, what I need to do, and how I need to do it.  I am a big girl and I GOT THIS!  Oh, and if you are expecting some kinda praise for all your good deeds or a friend of the year award...you are barking up the wrong tree, sista!  I'm just about to tell you to take a hike...and it won't be in my nice, sweet tone of voice either!  Got that???

Okay...rant over, for today anyway! ;-)

Oh my! Doctor drama...

Looks like I am switching doctors. I am nearly 36 weeks and I have had the worst experience and I just can't put up with it. Crazy, hormonal pregnant lady is about to lose her mind! Since about 20 weeks my doctor has been irritating me and doing things that really aren't what I'd expect. I have type 2 diabetes  (not gestational) and at 20 weeks he told me to stop my meds that I have been on for 2+ years. Of course my sugar went crazy and when I contacted his office he said check it 4 times a day and see me next week. When I saw him, he blew the whole issue off, and then tells  me I need the glucose test!  You really want someone who's body can't break down sugar to drink a super sugar drink and have NO meds to control it???  Genius idea, right?  After another super high blood sugar his nurse (not him) told me to skip the test.  He has never returned a call or acted concerned.  Even though I have had few issues and only contacted like three times outside of appointments, he never acts like anything is important. I wait to see him longer than he spends seeing me. He comes in measures belly, listens to heart beat and basically pushes me out the door saying come back in two weeks. I started ultrasounds early on in the pregnancy  because of diabetes...and he never reviews them with me.  If it weren't for the ultrasound tech I'd know nothing!!!   At 30 weeks the nurse said he'd be bumping up the ultrasounds and adding NST's. He never mentioned that, so I asked him.

 His exact words were, "You'll be fine".  At 30 weeks baby was 1.5 lbs. bigger than average and he's blown that off too.  A month ago I had pleurisy and went to ER cause I had no idea what the awful pain was. My doctor never saw me there (his building is connected to hospital) or even followed up with me. At my next appt. he was like sometimes pregnant women get it...and acted like it was nothing.   I wanted to talk about permanent birth control options and he's never addressed it. When I did he basically pushed the iud on me because HE recommend it. I don't want an iud. Then I had to ask at multiple appts. about scheduling c-section. When they finally do it's by email and I wasn't even consulted...and it's two days before a holiday. And the only day I'd even see my doctor is the day of surgery, because he is off for holiday.  And if me or baby had any complications we would be in over the holiday and miss Thanksgiving totally (maybe not an issue for some, but I have family to see and other kids to worry about as well).   Grrrr.  I have been annoyed with him since around 20 weeks.  I was really just trying to hang in there and finish it out since I had made it this far.  But it seems each week he frustrates me more or I leave there crying (pregnant emotions), because he's rushed through the appt. and I wasn't even able to ask questions!  Now, beyond frustrated I decide to just call a different doctor!  I call to get records transferred because I can't get an appt. at another practice until they review my records and be sure I am not to high risk to deliver in a rural hospital and so on. I got the biggest runaround from the current practice and a snotty bitch telling me she can take up to seven days to fax them.  Yesterday, i inconvenienced myself by going to my local office to fill out the records release and have it faxed after that's what they said I had to do!  When it didn't get faxed, I drove 45 miles to get them in person and she refused me because my doctor was not there. So now I wait up a week for her to fax, then the wait to be reviewed for appt. at new practice, then God knows how long to actually get the appt.  I may get to see a dr before my baby is due??? I was seriously about to have a meltdown, so I called the corporate office and asked to speak to someone about it and found out they cannot deny the records...and was promised they would be faxed first thing tomorrow.  We shall see...if not, they really aren't gonna like me!!!

Can't stay focused...

No matter how hard I try I can not stay focused on this blog!  I have been slacking so bad...and it's not for lack of time, I guess just lack of motivation.  Although, my motivation has been lacking a lot lately...I guess pregnancy does that?!?!

A little catching up...

I turned 32 on my birthday, last week!  My hubby took me to eat dinner at a fancy, super-expensive steak house!  It was yummy...not sure any yummy food is worth that price, but hey...we were celebrating! ;-)

He also got me the phone I have been wanting...goodbye old Samsung, hello new Samsung Galaxy S III!  =)

A few weeks ago my sis-in-law and friend threw me a baby shower.  Not many showed up, but we did get some nice gifts and we are just about ready (5 more weeks) to welcome our new, nameless baby into the world.  Here are a few pics from the shower...

We also got things around the house ready for baby...

He's rooming with us for now...so he only gets a small corner.  =)

Also, we finally got some more family pics taken so we could have one last set before new baby...and show off some baby belly (eeeeeeekkkk).  Here's a little preview.

Not much else to report...hopefully I can stay caught up a little better.  I gotta get going and feed the tot some lunch, and myself too.  I pretty much stay super hungry these days.  If I don't feed the tiny one he will start kick-boxing! ;-)

People aren't always what they seem...

Sometimes we have certain relationships and in this case friendships, where you value it as one thing, but when it comes down to it it's the exact opposite.  Unfortunately!

If you are new to my blog, I moved here nearly four years ago...I'm only about 45 minutes from family and old friends...but we all stay busy and have lives so it's hard to just run out and see one another.  My old friends, have pretty much turned out to not really be friends at all...except a couple and like I said, with the distance you can't just meet for lunch, play dates or a walk in the park...especially on impulse.  Now, I am sure if I needed them or they me, we'd do what we could to help one another.  As far as friends near me, for about two years I had NONE!  That's right, not a single girl I could hang out with, call when I needed someone or just chat with.  When I finally did make one, she moved away =(.  I made another and I am wondering if I'd be better without any at this point.

Why is it so hard to just be a good friend to someone and not require them to be paying gobs of attention to you every waking moment?  A true friend should NOT expect praise and recognition for every thing they do for someone.  If they do...are they really considered a friend???  I swear I have my feelings hurt and feel belittled for so much...is that how a friend should make you feel?  I feel like one minute I have a true friend who would give the shirt off their back and the next they'd be asking me to remember the time they gave that shirt...if you know what I mean.  It's like a constant reminder that I should be forever grateful to have this person as a friend.  And seriously, if you are gonna ask a friend to do a favor for you then don't continuously bitch about the outcome...that right there has ungrateful all over it!  I have spent more time being upset, being made to feel 'less' than said friend, having situations judged rather than just listening and giving advice or support (but they sure expect me to listen and give the best advice when they have situations...which are generally drama brought on by themselves), and being nit-picked about every single time I can't be at their beckon call...than I have actually spent feeling like I have a true friend.  Sometimes being so nice that you just suck it up and deal has it's disadvantages!  Even these raging pregnancy hormones haven't caused me to fly off at the mouth and speak my mind...YET!  It's almost like being bullied by someone who calls you their bestie...it's sad!

It's really hard to meet people when you spend your days at home with kids and don't have much interaction with others.  I love being able to stay home with my kids...but not making myself available to meet people really stinks.  I can't just walk up to someone in the supermarket and say hey, I am a SAHM and I have no friends, wanna hang out???  I am at a serious disadvantage when it comes to making friends.  Every girl needs a friend.  My hubby is a good listener and a great support when I am sad...but who can I complain to to he's making me crazy? ;)  Girlfriends are a vital part of life and when you have none or ones who need praise just for being one...it gets ya down.  Right now, I am super hormonal anyway...so someone who actually cared just a tad would be nice.  Instead, I have someone who compares me to them and basically I should just be more like her and everything would be fabulous.  PLEASE!!!  Sometimes when you take a step back and look at the big picture you can really see that someone's life really isn't all they have it painted up to be.  I am not blind, nor stupid...even though she doesn't give me much more credit. =(

Okay...pity party/rant over.